chameleon

i'm a chameleon, and as such, am not human, and have no right to a fair trial. in a city i am as human as humanity can be when it is absorbed through the senses. place me in a field and i am the grass. hold me to the sky and i'll be blue for you. place me within your dreams, i'll be beautiful. living with birds and i will learn to sing. in recognition of this, i am moved to trap myself with the life owned by others. a man without passion is hardly a man at all, then i am less of a man than most. but living among the passionate, i learn passion and someday yearn to be human. perhaps someday i will be able to confuse my camouflage reflexes by the sheer eclectic enormity of the life i pursue. then perhaps i will wake up and be human. unable to nur* reflect any longer, this survival mechanism will self destruct, vielleicht*. Ich habe keine* idea what the limit is. what the reflexes can handle. at what point, it wurde schwerig*. At which time, i will live.

*only

perhaps

i have no

becomes difficult (or heavy)

five year

i havent seen a rabbit in five years
its hard to see how they even move
under all that... fur.

I demand nothing less than brilliance. do you understand? Keeps marching around the front and says

Forget all your nonsense. this is what matters. that could only account for about less than 1/2 of what's really going on. i wonder if he (she?) realizes that pronouns may or may not be really useful. i wonder if she (he?) knows that sheet music is an instantaneous frequency domain representation. probably not.

There's no-one else in this room excepting me and (her?) him. not to say i am confused as to his (her?) gender. it just isn't important. there are certain aspects of femaleness (maleness?) that capture the movement, the tone, better.

better never than now. that's what the always say. i think i'll go home.

lalalala

lalalalala

sometimes i think that abstract is a fancy way of saying that something makes no sense to you, but you can see there is some semblance of sense to be made.

lalalalala

falling.

there he ran straight towards

the edge of a cliff and fel

_____________________l down

isolation

patience (child,) she'll be here soon. then you can sleep.

the (good) seconds fall (bye). (one) after the other,

(day)s at a while. taken back (whe)re (n)o-one

(of patience) will hold you from (you)r (dream)s.

(now)

should have been there

(should) have

been there

should('ve) been,

there should've

(been) there

should've been

(there) should

have been.

the (h)aunts me. the word should be there, but now it leaves, now it returns. who told it where to go. i didn't have the nerve to ask it to come back. didn't have the nerve, did not, have, the nerve. should is showled is should again.